Not right

There's something decidedly not right about things lately. I'm giving up on projects. It's just a lack of motivation, I suppose. Coupled with whatever virus this is that's going around. I'm not exactly sick, but I'm certainly not well. It's just an overall feeling of blah. And I'm not the only one that has it. Apparently my sister had it last week, and my step-mom has it today.

I think Jonas is getting it, too. I left work early today due to the blah factor, and when I picked up J-man, he was fussy. He hasn't had a good day at school in weeks. I feel guilty for leaving him there, knowing how miserable he is. I don't know if there's really a solution for it, though. He has to go somewhere while I work, and he needs the social interaction of being with other children, I think.

It's hard to explain. Jonas is certainly not a shy child. Not at all. But I do think that he's easily overwhelmed. Sound like anyone we know? He does really well if he gets to spend a day in the infant room where it's quiet and structured and safe, but when he spends a day in his own classroom it's total misery. He doesn't want to play, he doesn't want to eat, he doesn't want to participate in any activities. He just wants to be held. He even fusses when they go outside, and normally he can't wait to go outside and play.

So I'm torn between thinking maybe he just needs a different environment that can cater to him more individually, and the fact that I really like this daycare because Steven goes there in the afternoons and they enjoy their time together. Personally, I am less than impressed with their setup, their staff, and their routine. But I don't know if an ideal daycare even exists. I've worked in the industry before, and I know how it works. The teachers are minimum wage workers with limited resources and too many kids. Sure, legally, they're at ratio, but I think legal ratio and manageable ratio are two totally different things.

But I'm rambling. Like I said, there's really no easy solution. I'm sure that Wil's mother would be overjoyed to have Jonas three days a week, but I still think the social interaction, and the diversity of school is good for him on a lot of levels. And if left in Wil's mother's care primarily I think his already lagging speech development would really take a nose-dive.

But there's mroe going on than just an overwhelming day at school. He's fussed ever since I picked him up today. He's clingy, wants to be held constantly, isn't interested in playing at all. Doesn't want to eat or drink, and just cried himself to sleep in my arms a few minutes ago. No idea what that's all about. Maybe he's getting the blahs, too.

Lord help me, it's going to be a long weekend!

In other news, we got our tickets to the Wiggles concert today. I don't know who's more excited, the kids, or my and my sister. Jeez, you really know you're a parent when you consider a Wiggles concert to be right up there with Jimmy Buffet. And as a bonus, Granny upgraded us to premium tickets, which means we all get goodie bags! Woo-hoo!

Ok, ramble over. Going to go watch my fussy baby sleep. Have a good weekend y'all.