Like I said
the words are gone.
Here is the result of nearly two years of stagnation. I guess it's true... when you don't use it, it goes away.
Birth
And there we were,
all crowded into that tiny
room with monitors
beeping and me,
there,
moaning that I couldn’t do it.
Couldn’t do it.
“You will,” snapped the doctor.
(I never liked him anyway:
fucking humorless troll)
Legs forming a faulty stage
for the mass of peering onlookers,
improper angles propped
in the arms of husband and mother.
I bore down against bony grind as
shoulders rotated within their pelvic prison.
He arrived in the rush of a scream,
large,
warm,
wet on my belly and writhing,
admonishing me for disturbing his slumber.
And all I could do was stare,
frightened by the miracle
of two tiny cells and a creation
that was never meant to be.
Ok, so it's written in past-tense, there are tons of gerunds, and it really just plain old sucks, but hey, I wrote it, and that, my friends, is the first step. Right?
Revision 1
Birth
I couldn't do it.
There we were,
crowded into that tiny
room with monitors
beeping and me,
there,
moaning that I couldn’t do it.
“You will,” snapped the doctor.
(I never did like him:
humorless troll)
Legs parted
reavealing a faulty stage
for the eager audience.
With improper angles propped
in the arms of husband and mother,
I bore down against bony grind as
shoulders rotated within their pelvic prison.
He arrived in the rush of a scream,
large,
warm,
wet on my belly and writhing,
admonishing me for disturbing his slumber.
And all I could do was stare,
frightened by this miracle:
Two tiny cells and a creation
that was never meant to be.
***I think I might have liked it better before.
6 Comments:
YAY!!! I'm so glad to see that you wrote!!!
You shouldn't be too critical of the first attempt in two years - it's not nearly as bad as you think it is!
I especially like the 2nd half -and a bit of sliding things around would strengthen the beginning - start with L7, make it the first line. Make us want to know what you couldn't do...
Actually, for a first draft, this is outstanding. I always say....get it down. You can always fix it later. Good job!
Thanks Erin and Vickie, I appreciate your encouragement. I'll see if I can make any changes. I'm usually one of those lazy poets that doesn't do a lot of revision. Not because I think my shit don't stink, but because, well, because the more I mess with it, the harder it gets to be objective.
Actually, the second one seems more focused. I'm proud of you.
There was a time when I would have offered advice, but since I haven't written anything for well over a year I'll just say props to you and your second attempt. Some decent stuff in there waiting to be stripped bright and clean and dis-organized. Ok, that sounded a bit like advice, or a suggestion, well maybe I can't help it. I especially like the stanza about the baby admonishing his mother, though I probably wouldn't try to explain exactly why, I'd leave that up to the reader to play with in his mind.There I go again. Well, I tried ;)
Jim, you know that I'll always welcome your advice and comments. Suggest away.
I really think that it's a shame that you've stopped writing. I suppose I understand why, though. Life just gets too busy.
Thanks for stopping by.
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