Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Like I said

the words are gone.

Here is the result of nearly two years of stagnation. I guess it's true... when you don't use it, it goes away.


Birth

And there we were,
all crowded into that tiny
room with monitors
beeping and me,
there,
moaning that I couldn’t do it.

Couldn’t do it.

“You will,” snapped the doctor.
(I never liked him anyway:
fucking humorless troll)

Legs forming a faulty stage
for the mass of peering onlookers,
improper angles propped
in the arms of husband and mother.
I bore down against bony grind as
shoulders rotated within their pelvic prison.

He arrived in the rush of a scream,
large,
warm,
wet on my belly and writhing,
admonishing me for disturbing his slumber.

And all I could do was stare,
frightened by the miracle
of two tiny cells and a creation
that was never meant to be.



Ok, so it's written in past-tense, there are tons of gerunds, and it really just plain old sucks, but hey, I wrote it, and that, my friends, is the first step. Right?

Revision 1

Birth

I couldn't do it.

There we were,
crowded into that tiny
room with monitors
beeping and me,
there,
moaning that I couldn’t do it.

“You will,” snapped the doctor.
(I never did like him:
humorless troll)


Legs parted
reavealing a faulty stage
for the eager audience.
With improper angles propped
in the arms of husband and mother,
I bore down against bony grind as
shoulders rotated within their pelvic prison.

He arrived in the rush of a scream,
large,
warm,
wet on my belly and writhing,
admonishing me for disturbing his slumber.

And all I could do was stare,
frightened by this miracle:
Two tiny cells and a creation
that was never meant to be.



***I think I might have liked it better before.

6 Comments:

At 4:00 PM, Blogger Erin said...

YAY!!! I'm so glad to see that you wrote!!!

You shouldn't be too critical of the first attempt in two years - it's not nearly as bad as you think it is!

I especially like the 2nd half -and a bit of sliding things around would strengthen the beginning - start with L7, make it the first line. Make us want to know what you couldn't do...

 
At 5:07 PM, Blogger Vickie said...

Actually, for a first draft, this is outstanding. I always say....get it down. You can always fix it later. Good job!

 
At 12:50 PM, Blogger Mommyleek said...

Thanks Erin and Vickie, I appreciate your encouragement. I'll see if I can make any changes. I'm usually one of those lazy poets that doesn't do a lot of revision. Not because I think my shit don't stink, but because, well, because the more I mess with it, the harder it gets to be objective.

 
At 4:56 PM, Blogger Vickie said...

Actually, the second one seems more focused. I'm proud of you.

 
At 1:33 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

There was a time when I would have offered advice, but since I haven't written anything for well over a year I'll just say props to you and your second attempt. Some decent stuff in there waiting to be stripped bright and clean and dis-organized. Ok, that sounded a bit like advice, or a suggestion, well maybe I can't help it. I especially like the stanza about the baby admonishing his mother, though I probably wouldn't try to explain exactly why, I'd leave that up to the reader to play with in his mind.There I go again. Well, I tried ;)

 
At 2:41 PM, Blogger Mommyleek said...

Jim, you know that I'll always welcome your advice and comments. Suggest away.

I really think that it's a shame that you've stopped writing. I suppose I understand why, though. Life just gets too busy.

Thanks for stopping by.

 

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